1. When did you
start to stutter ? I
can't exactly remember but I remember my Mom started sending me to a
speech therapist around the age of 5. About 5 percent of children
stutter while they are developing their speech, but only 1% carry it
2. Can't you take some medicine or see a
wish I could. Unfortunately no medicine exists that can cure
stuttering. You can take something to make you relax a little, and some
other medicines can control certain chemical releases in your brain to
make you stutter less, but it has side effects and very expensive. I'm
3. Does it hurt?
It does hurt a little while
happening, I experience tension in my jaw, neck and shoulders. If I
stutter alot during the day and have hard blocks I will feel tired in
the evening. Sometimes my tongue also hurts.
4. Why do
you sometimes speak perfectly fluent, and sometimes you really struggle
know it is very confusing. It is because stuttering does not have a
single cause. Your physical state, emotions, thoughs, self confidence,
concentration, stress, perception of listener, situation and amount of
preparation all affects the
frequency and intensity of stuttering.Some days are bad, some days are good.
You taught English for 5 years....how ?? While teaching I am relatively
fluent. Again many factors contribute to me (and other people who stutter - PWS)
being able to do this. While teaching you have authority over
everything, that increases your confidence and perception. Most PWS
stutter less when talking to children or pets due to this fact. While
I'm teaching I really focus to speak slowly, deliberately and only a
few words at a time.I prepare and I focus on articulation and
projection. These are basic methods I learned in speech therapy and the
Mcguire Program to
control stuttering. I also enjoy teaching, and that plays a big role in
keeping myself relaxed and positive. I have stumbled in class a few
times, and children have laughed at me. I then laughed with them and
explained that they have a special teacher.
Over the years I have learned and
applied a very effective technique to help me reduce subconscious
stress that may cause me to block and battle severely. It's a
technique I first heard about during my speech therapy sessions at
University. I later met it again when I got involved with the McGuire
Program, a program for people who stammer run by people who
It's called “making a disclosure”.
Basically it means telling
people up front, before you start the conversation, that you have a
stammer and it will most likely surface.
Benefits to both parties
A disclosure prepares your listener.
Most people are unsure how to handle your stammer, or may be surprised
and confused when they hear it for the first time. It also helps you
to release some anxiety trying to cover up your deep dark secret. It
shows your listener that you are aware of it and that you accept it.
If you can accept it, they will accept it easier.
Develop a comfortable method
There may be different situations where
you can decide to use it. Personally I use it every time when making a
call that involves giving important, unavoidable information. For
example calling the bank, a credit card company, a hotel or a flight
ticket service center. It goes like this : “Before we start I want
to tell you I have a little speaking challenge, so when I'm talking I
will talk slow and may need time to complete my sentences, I need you
to be patient, do you understand?”
“Thank you for your patience”
the telephone operators I have ever
made this disclosure to treated me with the respect I deserve. They
will not hang up on you, will not rush you, and you will feel
comfortable speaking slow and repeating information if necessary. If
I block on a word I tell them “Just
let me take a deep breath and
I'll try again” I can then apply techniques to overcome the
Tell your teacher.
Through school I told most new teachers
about my situation. Recently I enrolled in a Mandarin Chinese Course
where talking is obviously the most important aspect. I made a
presentation about “Stammering in Movies” and used that to
introduce my classmates and teacher to this complicated phenomenon.
I explained how I handle it, and gave them suggestions on how to help
me. During the rest of the semester I could stutter comfortable on
bad days and celebrate fluency on good days with great support,
respect and understanding from my classmates and teacher.
Awkward, difficult and
Yes, it may feel awkward, difficult and
embarrassing. But will stuttering out of control feel any better?
probably know the answer so try “disclosing” a few times and
discover the results for yourself. Prepare
well, do it with confidence,
and reward yourself afterwards for being so courageous.
wrote this poem when I was 16, probably the time in my life where my
stuttering affected me the most
My life is like a fish - a
poem about stuttering
my life is like a
against the stream it's
allright now no, it's
only a dream
day it hurts me every
day it grows every
time I speak the
monster face shows
friends, they understand me they
chase the monster back but when
a stranger comes my hope
and courage lack
opposites don't like me they are
afraid of him so
everyday I wake up my
upstream life begins
Lord my God I thank you for al my amazing gifts
Lord I thank you that you love me so much that you challenge me to be a
Lord, I stand humble before You and ask that You will keep my mind open
Remind me that You gave me the gift to express myself fully
and that you made everyone special, You are constantly forming us
in your special way
want to keep focused on my goal because
it is my responsibility to reach my full potential and to maintain it,
I can achieve this when You lead me to practice healthy breathing,
speaking and thinking habits.
Lord I thank You for guiding me to the knowledge
and into experiences with people that helped me to understand these
You give me power to overcome false fears,
help me not to give into temptations of avoidence.
Lord let me realise that avoidences lead me away from my true self and
away from You.
Prevent me from weakening myself with blind behaviour
I am Your jewel, punish me when I damage your property
strenghten my heart and mind to forgive other people's reactions
remind me that they are only people, use me to inspire them
Lord give me confidence in challenging situations,
remind me that everything I need I already have
Lord thank You for letting me get up everytime I fall
Fill me with fear to realise that if I don't change I'll be the same
but let me not forget the changes I have already made, and that I
should be proud
Lord release me from laziness, if I'm lazy I'll fall down again and
I speak I want to look at other people,
keep my chin up, relax my shoulders, strengthen my posture
Let me appreciate every second and use it wisely
relieve time pressure, I want to smile,
remind me of my responsibility to comfort other with my elegant voice.
Drive away my shyness Lord, You know I will overcome if I expose,
keep my voice sincere and close to my heart, close to You
Lord you give me power and wisdom to repeat the inadequate and to
You let me learn this to be the best I can be, for You.
the fear and anxiety overwhelms me Lord,
where others only see silence but I am battling
Drive me with Your warm breath and I will conquer.
Lord let me persist throught comfortable and difficult times.
You are time Lord, You bless those who persist through time.
You will not give me something that I don't have the strength to
I want to conquer Lord, for You!
Let me endure to release myself from guilt and anxiety towards my loved
Thank you for the loved ones that support me.
Lead me to use them, because they are there for me.
let me work to rid myself of bitterness,
let me always strive te be the best I can,
even if it is not like those around me.
If it is your will Lord..because only through your Spirit can I relax,
can I be empowered,
can I breathe, can I speak.