The Lone Ranger...
I find myself ( why do I keep saying that? Do I constantly lose myself? ) Let's try another aproach. Crt+Alt+Del = Swish
YOU will find me all alone on the farm of a English family. They have left for a holiday to the south of France and will only be returning, or so is told, on the eve of the 14th of October. To think that only 5 months ago I still had a routine lifestyle, a nice car, a comfy commune of friends, going to work, developing a USB Host Controller Interface using a 8051 Microcontroller and a .......ZZZzzzz. Wake up! and doing my thing. Now I am far away from everyone and everthing I know, having travelled thousands of miles by plane, train, foot, bicycle, car and even boat, I am doing work that is regarded as the job that the uneducated in SA would do and being paid more than my ex- highly educated job in designing. All because I made a decision, got enough motivation internally and externally(thanks pa and boet!) to do it and followed through. While that though is being processed you will argue, JA, but the living costs is so much higher! Tis true and fair ......but I have no living costs! Haha! And from a culture patriot point of veiw, I am looking after the Life belongings and all that they hold dear of a English family that have only known me for 4 weeks. Escaping SA to maybe get away from the different colours and now doing a job that they would do for the grandchildren of the Rooinekke that got us into that situation in the first place.....If that is not the definition of Irony than I am totally confused to the meaning of that word.
Coming back to a different dimension, all is well. Throught the drips and drabs of civilization that I experience over the weekends I have made my contacts number up to 4000. I am slowly gathering my plans for my next trip to the netherlands and maybe a contiki tour. My speech, I would say, is lacking the strenght that is given by common practical excercise and the right motivation for that exercise. But because I have recorded evidence on video and audio,many written pages, several eye witness accounts, testimonials and several mind etching experiences, contact details of several other individuals that are going throught the same thing worldwide and have reached where I am heading, the arguments and even debate going on in my mind and maybe even some of the people reading this right now of " can that state of eloquence be achieved again and eventually maintained" will without any doubt be proven true. Yes, pointing to the evidence there are no loop holes,and you can let go of those silly doubts and relax. Repeat what you have done to achieve that, emulate the success patterns of those whom you admire, and keep adjusting, modifying and working on your own patterns for the optimum results. And if everthing is not 100% everytime, and contridictory to that somtimes 150% without any effort. That is life, live it. This would be the ramblings of my chatterbox, that little voice inside my head that keep my company all throught those "lonely" days. This is one of those blogs I would end of saying: Welcome to my mind.